Condemned?

Well, I've been finding myself lately wondering whether or not I'll ever be able to wake up every day at 6.30 and go to school/work... Now let's write a little history... I've never been the healthiest nor the most strong one. I have been a lazy ass all my life, but I have a great sense of responsibility, and lazy as I am, I have absolutely no problem whatsoever in getting up at 3am and go pick up a friend in trouble... I worked for three months at the British Embassy in Havana, and the truth is, not for a single moment did I had trouble for waking up early and going to work. Sure there were days easier than others, and stress had me nuts, but I enjoyed working there, people were great with me, every one was so polite. Now, at my current work, aside from having a racist boss and co-worker that have a love affair and hate my guts, I actually hate what I do. So is it that hard to understand why I have such a hard time waking up and going to work every day?? And my fear is this: not every one can work at the British Embassy and chances have it that I will never work there again probably, so, will I spend all my life unhappy 'cause I can't get up and go to work cause I hate what I do and my boss? Is there a slight chance that someday I will find a place like the British Embassy again and enjoy going to the office? My mom think I'll never achieve something 'cause I can get up in the morning and go to the office, and she thinks if I can't do that now I never will. But I rather think that this is just a phase, and that I hate my boss and my job so much I can get myself to get up early and dress up. I rather think that someday soon i'll have a job i'll enjoy, and won't have to deal with a racist boss who hates my guts and makes my life so miserable!! But that's just me thinking and hoping...
I gotta go now, but it was nice writing for a while, though no one ever reads!
loves,
cL